Thursday, April 28, 2011

Blah.

I should be excited. My birthday is Sunday. The sun has been shining. I've had my fill of Cadbury Creme Eggs and Marshmallow Peeps. Life is good. But something terrible has befallen one of my close friends, and it is consuming all available space in my brain. I have gone through my work in a daze, driven here and there in that fog where you don't even remember how you got where you are going. All my thoughts immediately tend towards this situation, which ultimately has no bearing on me other than it deeply affects people I adore. It's the ultimate sort of helplessness--knowing there isn't a single thing you can do or say to make things better. I try to keep things positive here on the blog, even on days where I'm not feeling it so much. But this I needed to share on some level, y'know--in the interest of keeping it real. So that's why I have nothing to share. My quilt is all basted and ready to go--but I have zero motivation to do it. I feel as though I can't bear the motion of quilting it, even though the idea of it delighted me so only a few days ago. I have a few small custom orders, waiting for assembly. It's a serious sort of funk, one I haven't been in for a loooong time. I almost don't know what to do--I'm so used to being busy and making things that when every fiber of my being is saying "Nope, not right now" I don't exactly know how to deal.

I'm hoping to have my soul refreshed by a certain nine year old boy who never lets me down in that regard. And if I can convince him to craft with me later, I might have something to show you if I don't goof it up beyond recognition. Which wouldn't be unheard of....

 

5 comments:

  1. Sorry your feeling so down. Just remember this too shall pass. Thankfully nothing in our lives comes to stay. Eventually all good things and thankfully all bad things will pass away. I hope things work out well for your friend and for you. :)

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  2. Oh Bethany, I am so sorry to hear about your friend. On days like these the best thing really is to just wait for the next day to come. And to pray... It is so apart of being human... I'm so glad you shared even this down time. But I hope that nine year old can help you out of this low feeling. That would be good for your friend too maybe.
    Blessings for a brighter day tomorrow.
    Ann

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  3. Oh Honey, I'm sorry to hear you're not doing well. I will pray for you and your friend. If I were there I would sit with you and we would craft our little fingers off. And comfort food would be involved.

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  4. Oh poppit, I'm sorry you and your friend are going through a tough time, hopefully things will return to normal soon. I find most things are made better by my 2 year olds, cake and chocolate don't hurt either.

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  5. Will DEFINITELY be praying for you and your friend!!! I totally can relate.

    www.iheartmygluegun.com

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